hey_web_designers hey web designers hey im mad crazy working working working suze orman always says pay yourself first - what is YOUR hourly rate? i decided mine is 1500 dollars , because it evens out- forensics, legal and accounting suck upa massive amount of my time- research and development ( listening to m,usci making music ) is free ( althogh should be tax deductible) ( ahnd in fact is witha good person doing taxes alas that is not my case due to circumstances WITHIN my c ontrol and will be cdeal with) i got my monthly budget and ibndeciding to follow in acordance with niormal lAWS of economy - for every dollar i spend i save 2, ive gone to different florist and cut my order ibn half at wholesale- and ma letting go of anyone whom i am not HAPPY to sign thier checks- wbho dont invoice me regularly and who dont show me or my family the respect we deserve by working 100 % and by producing results had a lovely evening with Ricardo Tisci tonight and love him- SOOOOOOO much- i have a new fave Givenchy dress, Couture , worn under a fur at the Couture , its genius, it was sucha relief toget away from the stack of bills and perusing things- eg former assts using my amex having a huge phone billdue to former emplyees using my t mobile, 40.95 cents i tunes that are off itunes and pages and pages of it and a 23 an d 22 percent amex and visa rate! eat me@! my fico is great its bogus bit its great- so how the hell am i getting 23 percent on MY own BANKS visa! thats insanity! bye bye amex fix it or im out! im pissy so i shouldnt be blogging- slacking off a bit in chanting- but protecting myassets and fam ily is teh objective of this post. ME. Kurt and Nirvana alll need a great software designer to help jason t and superman run this cluster of sites- loads of merch so loads of money and loads of design acumen- so far jason has been the best ive ever had at rendering whar i like and want and my scanner is fucked up so i havent sent him my latest images or pantone mixtures, i have dsoe3m amazing fonts and graphics and footage i wanna put up.....all taht channell 4 uk hours and hours of extrA FOOTAge, i have this 20 mninutes of kurt talking in his old man voice being hialrious on a cassette i found just funnycool things xespite my enormous liking for my design company they have not stepped up for me- and teh cluster is totally interereallated my site is cdullas dirt as much as i love those who are members of it and will totally be trhere for them tickets wise and seats wise on tour-= but if im to do thisfree site its gonna cost abourt 150 or 2 bucks to get ona nd it had better be worth it= arta nd loads of songs wich im giving both but i cant move rthe art an d i cant make a website look like my space wich is what everyone expects froma websute now= theres millions in merchandise involved in this so it cannot juist be anyone off the street= write to jason t and tell him/me about yourself if you ior yoru comapny wnats to design an easy peasy amazinfg triplet of sites and can improve upon the radiohead paradigm and also can keep metuclous records and cvan prove it and are willing to be subjected to a background check- a serious one- in teh sense that if youve ever ripped anyone off- dont come around! okay? but loads of great people are on my space- and webiste designers- todays your lucky day unless my company steps it waaaay up i mean like yesterday= its nothing personal but im slashing my budget by 3/4 that means if noones willing to reallyt outthe time and effort in then im going to have to say au revoir to them- if im n ot happy to sign their checks or they overcharge me for the things i really need to make this succesful then i can no longer afford them in my life , ive c ut back massively onclothes and getting a new second hand car, why the hell not, and going without extranbous legal and changing up and freeing my time from accounting forensic accounting and crazy deals i willregret for the rest of my life- i have only myself to decalre "Now i will stand up for my family" and with that determination and commitment even to stand alone and fight the biggest uphill battle pissing lots of people off c os the NOW me has read some substantially significant financial books about what efficent people do for your dollar and what they sure as hell do NOT do , this is the only way to VICTORY, i need to stop texting so much i neecd to put my health and creative life first and make one line texts Chanting to my Gohonzon is the biggest text to the universe i can send and as the ad so brilliantly goes= JUST DO IT. believe i deserve the best not just desire it and get pissed, i have a meeting tomorrow and believe you me im brin ging my a game- actions speak far far louder than words- and i will go by actions from now on and keep a watchful hairy eyeball on my finances- 23 percent? are they insane. lets try for 0. anwyay i know i sound pissy but anything and anyone who takes advantage of us is against us and thus is no longer welcome in our lives. i will not be forced into beliveing that 1 plus 1 does not equal 2 lets go back to the beginning of all this and to the people who were there then who [perhaps made mistakes but did not deliberatly create chaos or make trouble on purpose or break the cycle of zero accountibility= i will no longer tolerate this. i hope you get something out of this. i hop someone has really great software skills and if perceptive has proof of such and has a rec ord of accountibilty this is your lucky day-= go to the radiohead site think of the endless watys of imporving that story- i have most of these ideas but love how jason takes my ideas and imporves upon or adds to them - and superman= this is your lucky day= for alot of reasons i wont get into in a public blog- but go write jason with sites youve designed and sites you like and think run brillaintly and why your right to run these 3 massive sites plus a few more hugely important ones.........along with jason and my cyber team........m,aybe i shoudl only go to "professionals" And i expect professi.. but im always willing to take a risk as long as the person is qaULified and scrupoulsy honest- i do mean scrupoulsy. so show us what ya got! xxc 2007-11-30 false hey_web_designers-1 0 true wow_lifelock_etc_id_theft wow lifelock etc id theft its not dexactly cake to get tebh fbi to help u despite heaps and masses of documents they had the nerve to leave behind the ftc helping you is bogus too, they dont do JACK whats your best suggestion for clearing up old id theft but MASSIVE old id theft open corps you knew nothing about bogus tax stuff- mine e3as to directkly c all the irs wgh ignored me til my audit THEN they started listening.....now she wants me to back up EVERYTHING ican back up most of it witha document- i feel as tho my karma is good emnough that i wont get burned sonc eim not the one that did the plethora of oh every whiote collar crime you can think of from morgtage fraud to notary fraud to a MASS id fraud abnd 20 some corps oppened on my name, i just found 18 amex histories in the history amex szent me NONE reflected ( wel;l 4) in my legit ss but theres a fake ss number they used too, is it possible THEY cleaned up teh FICA by writing in so as not to be caught? theres also corp amexs and endless visas - 3 for every state almost ,. dozerns of wire transfers and international trusts under phony n ames= theres alot more but odont wanna give too many details you get the picture-= me and my daughter were put thru hell on earth driven insane and practically to death,,,,,,,,,,what can i do to get them back....or get the evidence besides the docs and phone loans and crazy charges i didnt know about ( my addy had been changed wout my knowledge) im pissed as much as ive let it go mentally i know karma will run its course- this was BEYOND evil id like toa sk the fraud investigator what makes thezse peop[le so dammed EVIL? ive never KNOWN evil like this and have never done anything close to matchingt this- it must be some sort of karma for beong ignorant- but i didnt "deserve" it....tell me about thso level of evil and cospiracy? these people didnt even like each other- the bottom line scam is dark shit and the banker was in on it wich is what mad eit fucntion so well.....man it wa sliek living in rosemarys baby til the govt took it even then its slow and paibnful to se these3 documents and it hurts and it hurts my kid. some of it was just done out of viciousness. the psych forensic said onbe of themw as a psychotic. like for reals. hmmm pinder the natiure of this kind of evil....im dead curious...c 2007-11-18 false wow_lifelock_etc_id_theft 0 true ficaradiohead FICA/Radiohead FICA score is that credit score you get for FREE ( but really its 30s bucks) if your 750 or aBOVE great but they willSTILL hold against you all the things on there that you didnt do - a very serious fincnailsp[erson told me the best way to deal with the "mistaKES" listed on thiers is to actually break the law, get the amex letterhead write to ine if the three agencies wichever has your "mistakes " on it, and just state the mistakes never happebned and itw as a tuypo= cos even if you have 800- any mistak eron there theyre going to consioder that despite your score- if threes stuff on there due to id theft or mistakesd ( i took 2 hours to do my amex yesterday and notd that my driver was apparently flying to the uk 4 times on amex and 2 times to the3 uk on the same flight on vixa with the attenteand 9.85 automatic insurances, for baggage tranasctions and each person had a "greeter" at 350 dollars when the flights a,d idnt occur cos every flight was not only multiple and all the add opns the sneaky amex tried to stick on there- 995 a transtactiomn? eat me and get me a new card ! the band hads nbo Greeter yet each of the greeters was 350 dollars and there was no dammed greeter , also i hjave a platinum card that i never applied for and refuse to pay a dime on sonc eive never applied for it last month tbheres a mysterious 30,000 ollars someone threw on there- and then wehne i asked my banker why ididnt have a check book she stated that swo and so told her not to give one to me- WHAT? am i 12! whats the prupose of that to make me more hel[less? so that o cant negotiate and deal withthings i dont wanna use the ccs for myself? also rem,emeber of the three fica scores the LOWEST is the one tghat all the cardes use as your interest rate per id fraud ive called wamu and chase ( where a mysterious pair of platinyum cards were as few years ago and fraud dept told mne to geta supeona yeah like thats easy) allyoucan do is write diown all the things that are mistakes on your fica sheet and write to those comp[laies anbd state your side- id fraud- you dodnt recieve that in the mail and DEMAND that hey write to expeiraimn , transunion, etc, becaome thier worst nightmare call them obsessively- tyhjey wont gtet ioff thoer ass tpo clear your good name t5iul yopu take a day and just do it- one of the attributes of a wealthy woman is CLEANLINESS! wtf? ouch hearing that hurt cos the other opnes i hade down by that Suze means organistaion, the3 ability to keep your life somewhat ornaised- that you dont klet your legt hair get to awinter coat just cps your not shagging someonme thgisz month, that you take teh time to clean to invite Lakshimas energy in your house( why Indian women sweep thier doorways every day to invite Lakshima in ) i am known as quite a pig- thatds why in rehab its so important we learn top make ourt opwn beds anbd take care of our own spaces, time mangament wise- take care of what i have 0( eg im sick of this bank violating my rights legally = allowing signatures other than mine for checks allowing the "honest but stupid" b usiness manmabnger tp p[ay himself whatever he was in the mood for monthly and will be getting a lawyer to deal with mty insirance letting an embezzler open up 9 accounts there in may 03 while we lived like dogs and dop a frauds refinance on my sisiter in laws home 4 x in one day- you heard me 4x in one day- and they made one stick and it had to go up on sherrifs auction 3 years ago this home i bought kurts sister for cash outright- for 190k caqsh they recfinanced it 4x in the same day and iusewd teh SAME notary on each of these phone refis nsd phone appraisers- and the SAME notary on each of the phony signature cards i have banking insuirance covering me for 100,000 for each account so it comers to quite a pretty penny= now findingthe lawyer to go get them- thats gonna be the hard part cps if i hear "call teh authorities:" on more time illscream-= ther eis NO authorities for this sort of fraud- noone listens tyo you and all these citis and wamus whoa dvertise that they willnever l;et you have id theft-= theyre so fullof shit youcan get your most info by sweettAlking whomever answers the phone and by the time she he sends yoput o fraud thjy shut you down= all i asked for was the e4xpenditures on the two chase platinum cards"geta supeona" well my daddy aint a judge so you tell me how to do that, mty fbi donrt care, who caqres isjthe irs in my case andthey are so volatile i could ende up owing what i cant prove = but i can prove a ton- why else wouyld i call the irs in the miodst of an azudit when NOONE wopuld giove me muyauditors name? cos that ts the only govt azgency willing to get theier money and go afte rthe bad guys this may not be alpplicable to most of you but im sire a ferw of you have expirienced idnetity fraud its 3 out of 10 presently,,,,,,,,more financial advice to come....... as for radiohead= they didcnt jump off a REAL clifff, they bungee jumped you KNOW the kamikaze pilot in me wnats to do the same dfamm thing excapt wuith my a lsit mnaterial, with the real thing- theyve made 9.7 m,illion in 3 weeks this way and its live junk-= not junk as radioheaddoesnt really amke JUNK but its live - most of it heard before( wich youve all heard liveversaionbs of things veryvery different than non live versions of things) i really think it couldf work do all my magazine covers in january - so the lead time in there kamikaze thropugh my junket my oprah my tv shit n the 2 week leaD UP and just jump of f that cliff i love doing things really first im greatful for radiohead for making the first move- id do it differentlyt -= thats why b sides are no longer b sisdes but have to be a sides to an extent-= cos theyre EXTRA TRACKS now wich can mean up to 500k to such and such sponsor coty./my space etc. and since the art is amzing thius far ( taZke a look at m/m paris and goole thioe rimages.......ive alwats done my own graphocs but they are really inspiring saw us play in paris and might do it for the ashoestring budget im on) i have alot of fast rock songs to wrote ina hurry- and were onja gold streak- were making new riffs everynight- thger ay lttw as wrotten ina month and no dates Are changing if we strip it in hell theres not even a mixer per se presently-= ithionk there may abe a few mixers on this- but my reputation is pretty bad- so if people already KNOW me they loveme or like me- if they dont KNOW me due to the whole guinea pig female celebrity witchtrial, ( and cmon i had all charges EXPUNGED eg THEY DONT EXIST my punishment was going to court 37 times) i justthinjk offering about 10 songs but your best for "free" witha what am i worth sign not just NINs cast offs i mean yopur a sides- i don t know im percolating- i love risk and most everything ive ever done well has been because everyone said iw as crazy to do it-= thazts why words liek "risk management" and Rime management:" are4 resonating with me now. i am going ot see the bank anotherr banker today and see if we connect- i dontneed my business managers realtionship with the bank i need my OWN relaTIONSHIP WITH M Y BANKER= i know someone dead poor= she ewent into her loc al citi= and she stated simply-= " im goping to be very very weklathy and if youd like to come qwith me let me know ot illtake my business erlsewhere" she then pulled out a detailed down to the wire busziness plan ( uin the fireld of marketing) im not suggesting loans are a good thing - advances and loans bother me personally- but when i return from europe aznd amex has been paid 1/3rd too much money for repetitive tickets charged to amex visa and platinum amex- im NOT a happy girl- in fact ive hired a consultabnt in a hourly basis whose british and posh and verrrry organised witha waqy about her in terms of marketing etc, that will deal woth the 1-800 amex lady that i used to have was told died in 9/11, wic h turns out to be a morbid and vile lie just to diconbenect m,e with my amex lady= so that they could go hogwild and create phony amex after phob y amex- leavinfg mty xc redit at 130 or however low touy can gop and forcing me ( astupidely sibce i couldve sued them i now frealise) to take ouyt a loanshark style loan to pAy these amexes that were not mine off- but i plan on wrioting ot everyone of these whiners and complainers omn my ficaz and let themn know i was a vistim of id fraud and have a govt agency investigating this- and would be appreciative m nbo in fact i will write" you need to immediatly write to experian and take off these charges please as that has appeared on mty fica score" what chya all think of the in rainbows thing? noce busibness model but how about content? was it karma police? did amny of you pay? im very curuous about this.......if was done with my pr first i could pull it off lotsa remimneders that im npt some retard celeb who does nothing but just play everywhere ill be seen well be seen the most playing in 2 weeks leading uyup to thedrop[ and then dropa cd a few weeks later- i think a nasty plan for fun anf giggles and ,maybe risk but managed is formulating here....thoughs????? 2007-11-15 false ficaradiohead 0 true money money a fairly well spelled blog ...thats such a reach for me...why ar emy emails pretty impeccable....and my blogs are a spelling disaster.... aND im so psyched to reAD the comments- smart and funny- look at that! i couldnt really give a shit about whatthe bloids and blogs and non legit media think of me in between albums, its a free for all freefall time- as youhave no definiing power=as an artist- buit frankly id rather die than put out a weak record especialluy NOW- i had one disastrous record and i am not doing that again- it may be somewhat about sales but from the cover art-= wich i had NOTHING to do with to the shoddy production that thing wasa mirror of my life condition but not ina good jaded exile type way- like Any life condition we all our mirrorsa nd we all become tarnished and we must wipe thattarnish til it shines its really also a mAtter of time management- as suze orman says people first money second things third- eg what the fuck IS that aston martin doing inmyd riveway when i cannot even drive? im not tight im just reflecting the fantastyland of money that ive lived in for far too long, i possibly CAN afford that car i didnt know HALF of my monthly nut and while that may sound rather priveliged to you some of you-it makes me insanely vulnerable- theres no tradeoff in organisation/cleanlin ess vs creativity im not going ot lose my "edge" by paying attention to a budget and sticking to itand a savings a roth and as the astute comment said not more spent than what comes in- its fantasyland shit and thats how so many woman get stuck in credit card debt etc. there was some great buddhist guidance today "If you allow the passing of time to let you forget the lofty vows of your youth, you stand to block the source of your own boundless good fortune and sever the roots of limitless prosperity for your family and loved ones as well. Please never lett his happenm, only by remaining steadfast to the vows we have made in our youth can we shine as true victors in life" theres alot more about health- getting to true creativity is the only way to healtha nd i do believe that movement and creativity is the only way to aerodynamic movement and to shine some of this chaos on- but i must have a better handle on my finances- whats that insurance policy ? what the ehll is it for? why has no insurance policy ever poaid me a dime? why even bother with insurance basically? in my case@! whats that weekend houseekeeper? couldnt i give that to charity? c ouldnt i save that in an account an dstart a foundation with it? etc etc etc. its a great little read "Woman and Money" ( Suze Orman) it was revelatiory for me and i am pretty dammed older than a lot of you- your future as strong shining victors in your life pretty much depends on the seeds you plant know at 22 23- ( the median age of most of yall) so think of me as the cool auntie that might even let you get your nose pierced-= and take my advice- learn about income vs capitol and how to hang with a budget and know that the irs and student loans are 2 things in life you never wanna fuck with. Try paying for stuff with cash - i have have to do it its a valueable lesson - you see what your actually PAYING for all this shit=that we all must have- wether it be hot topic or Lanvin its the same dammed hideous bullshit, why why why did i go get a unusable fancy car? what was i thinking? its ridiculous!@ Now i know what iw as thinking i was trying to impress a few people- fuck them- its indulgent waste and excess- this doesnt mnean i dont tip and im not very generous but im becoming far more AWARE. and i wish i was a whole lot younger when i learned this stuff , many m,any of you are going to be radically succesful people when your older- and many of you are women or young women- i wish youd learn as much about money and get rid of daddy/god fantaSTIES. cos theres YOU and YOU alone to depend on about money! ims o ashamed i didnt know this- thelevel of embezzlment and fraud in my life can only be dealt with by the irs- and they are voracious! im scared of them - but i have to turn to them- as they have appeared in my life and i have nothiong but gratitude that finally this shit will get sorted out. and people will go to jail, wihc i dcouldnt car eless about since noone escapes karma noone, their fates are sealed, but had i been far more aggressive and less trusting and had a mnonthly tick sheet- i wouldve bveen able to control things better and looke dup terms like "land trust" and stayed in touch with amex and my fica score monthly the id fraud wouldnt have been as bad as NOONE helped me - notthe fbi noone,not the police- and now they wanto know WHY these police re3ports werent made- cos the cops laughed me off - and cos i c opudlnt afford a lawyer! in any case- i think i KNOW justice willve served but its most important tp portect what i have NOW to have a solide relationship with ones banker to make a 1 yr a 5 yr and a 10 yr plan with all the goals and increments in there- iw ish i could teach you all to do this one thing-= just take a savongs account out an dput aside a set amouint every month go without and double your money by having less crap clutter and book or thing in every color or 4 of those t shirts instead - i know easy to say hard to do right? i say after ive come back from Paris and a mass of indulgence and gluttonous behaviour- particularly at Lanvin where i have a small % off- but where every thing is perfect to my eye- every little thing! i feel so follish where am i going to wear all this stuff to! im not going to wear it ion any red carpets sinc eim stayong off those things- i get excited about fashion esp in L.. since every night the stakes are pretty high- but in la - i work and work and work some more- why NOT wear vintage again - why NOT make my own clothes i can sew- If MJ can make 3000 dollar cashmere silk ribbed t shirts with distreessed glass i can sure make them( even tho he kidnly gave them to me) and i have a few special relatiobnships with designers like him- but that took years of sincere friendship and nott hinkingabout what these people would GIVE me but thibnkingabout what mind blowing artists they are and a mutual admiration - not JUST when im up for an award or in a "most stylish" era/ theres been less of them than more of them / but they sure make MY life cheaper! positive behaviour=positive lifeforce= unswervable inner happiness= what i desire i always believe= more gowns and crap than i could evr possibly want! atthe root of that of course is GREAT RECORD and or FILM- or ART- so im getting the hell off the internet asnd going to make collages! and no imn not telling you what of- i have always done my own graphics for the covers of my records- ivce got these lachapelles and these sam taylor woods and chiho aoyishima prints and Hell Babies prints and Nara prints( great femme Japanese artists i am obsessed with japan ya know! i also am really into anything wedding related- like cake toppers wich is a dammed cheap hobby!) and make my own graphics using Dafont and other font sites and theres so much to dicover out there so much seething creativuty and its all for free or in my head- due to my friendships and compassion wich develops more every day for my friends and strangers the favour bank and goodwill bank just grows and grows- it was funny to read your madonna vs me comments-= i read the comment back and yeah it was uncessary - due to our common friends- and due to her being years out of my life but not out of my world- and so many people did grow up on her- i just grew up on the stones and cohen dylan so the image stuff does intrest me to some extent- becaus eimgary is fun to play with = but ...well theres no b ut thats the part thats intersting to me- otherwise in rehearsal i discuss blood red shoes or dirty diamond or the originality of the White Stripes vs reality- authentic "authenticity" for young urbanites who are sick of slick overpolished music= but how great is it? thats bound to be a discussion id get involved in , or having been in London at the apex /Nadir of the Libertines= ve some of my younger by far English bandmates- who to them- that was a massive and important moment- whereas to my jaded eyes atthat time- itw as cute- "cute" - was it HEAVY? were those little gigs the "gigs of the decade" ? it would depend i guess where time and culture interesct for you=-how much iof an innovaor or what they call "early adopter" in the hells of marketing-= eg thinking for yourself and not needing to see the approval of the popluar people first , whoever the "popular:" people are to you these days- My daughter tells me the Emo Girls are the popular girls in high school now and that blondes do NOT have more fun in high school! whoa Maybe reading Plath at my Mousketeer audition in the 70s was just waaaaaay ahead of its time! in fact it bloody well was- there will be a gothy-=wierdo-= emo girl Mouseketter someday! watch!@ we all want to feel accepted but did you know that a "Novelty Seeking Gene" is medical FACT? iot affects 9% of the population ( addiction/alchohism affects 15%) Thats a whoel lot of us on the rolller coaster first- inthe moshpit first- wearing what we dammed wel want first- you m ix that gene witha n addic t gene( moi) and your pretty fucked, you mix that gene with shrewd business acumen . disciplne rthat far surpasses mine as much as ive gone through hell to acheive the discipline i now have and you get a skillset of epic proportions! wether in marketing, law enforcement, the c elbrity sweepstakes, "singing" "dancers" withthier own cruddy operfumes- or cruddy cosmentics- and you get an EARNER= so ifyou arent afflicted with self destructiveness- bi polarity or adhd- your pretty much set babe. if youare there are so many COGNITIVE and mostly SPIRITUAL ways of learning to master your own power to not ( no matter how abused some of you were as children) give your power away and become codependent on a daddy/mommy/god figure ( a major issue i believe i am in the midst of conquering and the consequernce is the p[eople used to my passivity in my own affairs as i dem and accountibility are all flipping out throwing all sorts of pies my way in my inner circle my line is..... show me the paper- show me my money - let me have MY voice- we can collaborate - if to another artist- but i will not be a passive puppet= due to my persona being controversial and one of a teflon strong bionic person - and there is some genetic truth to my health thank god and my ability to craft hell into art- but thats just genetic= im far far more vulberable and delicate and thats the contradiuction wich has been taken advantage of- that and the disp[arity between my actual day to day self and the level of this weird accessory of celebrity wich im barely congnisant of) i hope sharing this information publicly is beneficial to you- i try to choose words wisely and honestly- because we allwant success- and some of us are very different than others - none of you would be on my friends list if you werent early adopters- innovative types with no need for "social proof" that is market slang for you seeing me attchaed to a fabulous CONTEXT and that making a person like me- a film thats great or a friend thats extremely powerful/famous/bel;oved/wealthy- shit like that- i do not nor will i ever use my friends to gain "social proof" ......i get accused of namedropping alot- its sort of a cheap shot- since i have alot of friends-= mentors - people whose lives i aspire to know more about so i can acclimate thier inner streghth and happiness to my own - people i wish to be aligned with -= higher planes and lower planes of spirituality- i get attracted to stray puppies as wellas superwinners- in AA we say "do you have something i want" and "stick with the winners" re staying sober. By that it means the quality of the lives of our friends and our closest circles and those relationships we put the most time into= thats why time management is so important and risk management in aNovelty Seeking Addict genetic types makeup is so crucial thus back to the savings account-= i like most of us tend to live ina fantsy land if i allow it that my saviour is just around the corner that "money comes and goes in my life" YES to ever shrinking assetts if i am stupid, i MUST =become far more disciplined . compassionate. and conservative if i am to allow abundance into my life at all levels and TIME is golden even when your 22 and on;y think the silver bullet may killyou-= your immortal arent you? noone is, we all face the final breathe. so adding value into whatever i do is my goal and timewasting is NOT. Well maybe ive been a morbid kid /young woman/woman my whole life but my mortality is on my mind alot and death fascinates me- in the sense that im not afraid of it = too much- but when i am in that last breath that we all must take i wantto look back and know i gave more than i got-= that i am loved by my lov ed ones and cherished due to my time investment in them- i missed my dearest male friend from NY this week - a very very talented and sharp and lovely man= soneone i cherish massively and my chaos did not allow room to simply hang with him, i leaenrd alot in the last ten days for specifics that are not appropraite for public reas.. but knowledge is ALL right now and then output is after that and befor estudying and knowledge comes a spirtual and physical output. ive got to cut shit up and glue it on paper courtx 2007-11-14 false money-4 0 true americas_sweetheart america's sweetheart it may be a so so record i know theres 5 good songs on there- i just have a foul relationship with that record. its just not mine- not me- maybe its a snapshot in time but no time i want to remember- ever ever ever. thast just me- i hope you got something out of it- i thoughthe whole trauma and drama of finding out the level of trust and ebezzlement at that time- if youve ever seen Rosemarys Baby - i lived it for years wasx driven mad and nearly died from what happened. thats all, so for me what started off as bouoyant and free ended flaming in hell with every kind of demon- now these girls are having meltdowns right and left - but try being the guinea pig for the modern female celeb breakdown witch trial standing in a felony courtroom witha million dollars in forged checks in your bag wondering what and why the hell.....anyway yall dont kno wthe story i just infer to it n ow and again- just save and get to know your credit score and your economic situation- moneys out there simply waiting to be grabbed by organised mindfulness, and never ever trust a significant other with your personal finances is my advice and i believe Ms Orman is with me on this- you should check someones fica score before you even begin entertaining thoughts of a serious relationship i dont care how snotty or sneaky that sounds- but i wont go near a relationship with a 10 foot pole i dont care if its a b illionare i am so burnt out on anything other than a weekender once in a ...well you know i do what i do- but know your peoples fica score..... 2007-11-14 false americas_sweetheart 0 true madonna madonna did i slam madonna? well i didnt mean to, i havent spokent o her in.... oh years- i did need to speak to her recently- about a shared situation but got my information elsewhere- shes very - well i dunno we probably think about the same thing of each other- when we think of each other. we have some mutual friends - a few actually- and stylists and whatnot- so i dunno - im friends with her manager- and always takke waht he says very seriously= idon think i d go so far as to say that i SLAMMED madonna- i dont generally slam anyone these days slagging people is for kids- and id ont believe in evil toungue- evil eye nonsense- you get what you give and thast my core belief so if i said i personally did not find much value as a rock musician in the msuical OUVRE of madonnas WORKS , there isnt much to INSPIRE me as a MUSICIAN in ROCK MUSIC of the lower fidelity authentic ( i spose that what it could be called) sort - slickness doest interest me much at this point- and theres alot of slickness in the POP MUSIC OUVRE, or it would not sell- i think shes had some fine producers and i like...well ive never really listened to her music to be honest- shes a nice person we have a faded but complex relationship to one another - and with time children a marriage all sorts of things relax in a person so i dont know- i dont think i salmmed her i think ipraised her business acumen- and her ability to not screw up a good thing- im far m,ore self destructive quite obviously and shit....were not even in the same category of MUSIC- were just bnoth quite famous so ive been told........ in any case i like EVERYONE. YAAAAY. i havbnet talked to aqny friends in the UK unless i brought them home with me to LA because if im not in creative mode im in business mode- and theres a lot to protect and alot to get fixed in the past- i dont mean to be so negative - but women and money........ its a pandemic really isnt it/ checkinga fico score for the forst time EVER was a shocker- - i have a lovely time when im in the UK and its far calmer than it is here in LA and i very much plan on a 2nd home there- but only when my finances are safe- and n ot treated like so much dross-and for that i must obtain KNOWLEDGE and EDUCATION. Even though im an artist- yeah we too must suffer Fica scores and worse than those who arent - because we are treated like utter shit if we even allow th eslightest thing to escape and iveallowed others to take care of my shit for so longa nd im so ANGRY - at them obviously but at myself- this chaos has got ot be cleared before anything can move and sometimes i do not care about records or movies or any dammed thing - until the stuff is clear and clean and a simple life is lived = with dashes of fabulousity and very nice floral arrangements ..... and weve been writing at nigh dso i have to switch modalities and its verty frustrating indeed and incredibly time consuming as i also have to mak etime for my child- who needs more time than ever at her age and vulnerability- and she is the love ofv my life- i havent had time fo rfriends- for travel for a dammed thing- tow ear m y lanvin dresses even to wear lipstick or do my hair-= or anything maybe i shower jumop into my Hysteric jeans and a Rick t shirt and go to work change my undies and bursh my teeth and brish my hair and othe rthan that i havent even worn PERFRUME for two weeks- ive worked my ass to the BONE - im tired and gimme a break im working my ass off chanting my ass off, taking care of my kid my band my producer my home my friends staying with me....my fincanses ....christ i havent even been anywhere biut the studio and the rehersal stuido and a few banks- its a GRIND,,,i do see a light at the end of the tunnel- aND AGAIN for gods sake you tabloid writers get it bloody right at least- Mosses house is LOVELY- My daiughter is 15 and its possibly not right for a teen but she needs to see it first- and its also very tidy and very neat and she runs her biz affairs very very nicely - i have total respect for her as a friend and a mother- and like her tons and have known her for 1000 yrs and thats about all im gonna say about anything.....i like EVERYONE- unless theyt are taking food off my table illegally- then i dont like them. time for bed- where you zig baby i shall zag Xc 2007-11-13 false madonna 0 true oh_shit_the_inspartion_fairy_sprinkeld_her_glitter_ oh shit the inspartion fairy sprinkeld her glitter oh shit the inspartion fairy sprinkeld her glitter... in the last 6 days 4 of us seriously the tightest unit in rock history ( mine ore nayones i know) 21, 28. fortycough cough coough something and way older than me in rock years we have written liek a whole other album the b sides HA! its ironic cos its loose and sick and cool and beuatiful and Linda doesnthave time ever- wich is a shame as its our record mostly tho its myt record so im gonna pick the songs on the final record and some are going c os some are COMING_ two best songs of my entire career got written- kicking ASS yall have enough information abopuy whats already b een recorded so this shit si staying secret as hell tho we filmed banter and bits that if i can figur eopuit hpw to upload i will share Mickos a Genius so is Pauley and Stu ( Liams off cos Testino fell in love with him wich shows good taste and put hm in the Burberry campaugn wich he hates modelling and hes a far betetr guitar player and pati hAD to do some stuff ) we averaged 3 songs a day for 6 days in rehersal, i meAn Micko is a GENIUS he could will be top 10 of all time hendrix buckingham may richards buck edge billy kurt GENIUS, such amaxing taste we raided guitar center and the new tyoys were great man did we wriiiiiiiiitttte got the dylan songbook wich i shouldve got two mnillion years ago theres 784 songs in there looking atthe polpular songs ( ima dylanogilist) ) and went DUH tahts how he does it i have my little secret dylan obscure song and ive never covered him tho iwas green w envy when PJ pulled off Hiughway 61 whe i went ot check who had coverecd my seecret bootleggers only classic a fe wpeople includinga very old friend producer and music director on SNL ha ddone it for a certain chanteuse whose been to hell an dback a few times whpo people compare me too who i love dearly but am very pissed off with for giving my daughter a half glass of wine on new years( alt least it was petrus!) and i dont DONT DONT DONT sound much like her like certan people say smoking has fuycked up certain l;evels of my stamina - eg Violet would tajke a whol elot outta me every night in terms of the scremy register of my voice but my voice is always so much better live ive been on the fucking hunt fo rthe THE Microphone Stevie Nicks tolf me she sang througha l;ittle drum mic her whole career , im ina robe right now Auntioe Stevie gave me its so what youd expect its mad eof a piano shawl and long whiote silk fringe, i like collecting certain little treasueres from the rock fgoddesses rthatare my elders, i got a loose 2000 year old mens white t shirt from Patti , a pair of boots from Marianne, that i had doubled for Larry Flynt and somehow i endxed uo witha pair of tan Leather Pants of Pallenbergs and mroe new 80s kieth richards paise3ly shirt from the 80s, ( wich it wa sthe 60s) maybe they ar etotems, in any case we have the mist amazing arrangement for my secret dylan song and ive never done it coew ive bnever had the band with the right chops genius or taste and by staying small just the 4 of us and chris( of chrios clasic wich we revistited last night but i dont think chris wants his song fucked with much so itllw ait til i can get to its original form it really is a tight dong the way i had it i mad eit poppier) in any case i heard glimpses of this brilliant sound coming from damons studio he wrote all the rhodes hammond and moog and pianop parts on this record and is such a genisu looks liuke he walke dout of 1973 and not in a posuer way its the ukltimate real thing stoner band= Big Elf shoudl be up on my mystical jukebvox soon i wish i could share sopme shit with you but idf have to transfer froma camsera TOA cd then edit, even music id share some if i just knew how jasion t and superman who are doing this site( and jason in ONE text please send me your email so i can send you the new chiho i got for a new background) for thos eof you who can upload a something something upload for me the following a photograph of your favourite new thing i wont go to links that arenmt thru as im too lazy and this is my one day off tomorrow i wrote lyrics for 13 songs! and i had business to do ytoday too as my best friend just mysteriously betrayed me in th emost treachourous agonising way iveever had it in the back= i agree with nothing exceptt hat we get along great aznd that creatively we might me goods together- but if i cannot trust someone - if theyve abused the thing im most angushed scared and helpless feeling about how oir why shoudl or could i do something further with them? i hope it gets fixed cos love is forver and thats why it hurts so much that this was domne to me= the probelm is this person thinks everyones GREAT and i live in fucking LOS ANGELES and i liocve is a SHGARK POOL and have scammers and rip off artists and fucking eviul a dsfuck motherfuckers ina nd ouyt of my life regularly and my protections are supposed to be rottwiler tight and if they are not then they need to change- i trust and maybe the lesson ios - too much and depend a little too much- but im an artiost so unless i go get economic tiutorials from a genius why cant i find honesty when it comes to business in some areas? DEAMND paper on everything legibel all sneaky bits up front force people to signa contract of your making so im agonised and hurt , beyond what i can express and i express it publically because imn SICK of it so sick that im not trusting anyone withjout paper paper apApr graphs and accountibility - and if you ever see a real estate or other cobntract getr some one with an mba to give you a WRITTEN cliff notes of the sneaky bits and fuckings your getting an dthen you can negiotiate-= so my whole lofe has been decimated and eithe rthis person makes a major restituion in many ways not just fiscal or i move onto a different paradigm - sans some one iove considcered my best friend for years and its not going to driveme into the anguish or pain pr mental opr phsyocal break down im sick of the stress this dynamic betewwen me and this person si caussing me i love oiurt friendship but the business end of it is ridiculous- so maybe frienda and business do not work, i guess thats the lesson = dont depend on anyone but YOURSELF and no matter what a freak you may be you have the same rights as Julia bloody Roiberts, in this country, thank god for my band and my friends in Buddhism an dthefriends i dont pay - cos when it gets to the pointthat your friends are all being paid, your fucked. thats a sad thing about fame- i never planned it all - keep friends you do not pay im about to ;partner with amnetor and a friend and someone i worship and i think it will work well because its a creative endeavor and not a financial one ....well theyre gonna miss the best part of my adventure and iw ill only allow results driven people who defien what they do in 20 pages or more and what they are egopign to deliver or else THEY DONT GET PAID/ the point GET IT ALL IN WRITING AND MAKE SUR EIT GOES YOUR WAY . but im icy ssad- madonna is a great business woma but come on she s weak as an artista nd we akl lknow it- i like madge - but as a relevant musician - its a joke shes singing from such a calculating thought out place all the time its never from her gut or heart or intuition so maybe it sounds great an dis slick and you can hum it -discxo n dance it but ambitionand sass and shrewd does not equal great art- hard work and major dsicipline doesnt equal great art and all of those are great things- i covet thenm i haVE great disciplne and i do work like a bionic thing. l demand your respect you have NOTHING to apologise for= if you were a drug addict or alc hoholkic make you amends and dont be contrite or feel defective because your not you just got the sensitive briliant gene wich also has that curse with it= the one they covet and cant have= so theres an upside am trying ot se teh JOY In this betrayal - i didnt lose the farm but enought to fuck up my plans and my dreams- so that i have ot make differnt changes and thats not goodi otherwise just becaus ethey didnthave the balls to litigate things that doesnt mean there arent plenty of dobermans ariund who graduated top of the class whp will bite peoples asses off for incopmptence obstruction of justice ancd whatever the legal word is for taking complete advantage of someomne when they wer eunder m,assive duress aand promsiuing the moon and not delinvering even a cookie. Maybe reparations will be made ot my dsatisfACTion but its gonna be tons of work and what sthe point really - the trust is gone. hwo do tyou get trust back when youvebeen betrayed by the person you are closest to? esp if they never ever admitthey are wrong. basically you just learn your lesson and move along ironic timing/ hmm / maybe there is a desire to shoot thmesleves in the foot on the ev of something they really desire a creative and succesful adveture. hmmmm. well im not shrink hjust the victom of a horrific betrayal and its my opwjn fault for not demadnionga mor eformal relationship and demanding ( by way of statinhg i ewill not work with you anymore if i dont recieve paper and accoutibility for all they you are allegedly doping witha timeline for results) fuck em. i wll prevail and these knives in my back hurt burt if the plans afoot to break me were rudely interupeted i hope everyone enjoys the cash cos karma is a mean sonof a bitch/ and failure ruin and misery WILL come the way of people who lie cheat and steal/ and underestimating me because i am senstive and when i love someone i go thte extra mile and trust liek an innocent , is stupid, illget mine bvack and by the time om done with this little sitiuation i think theyll all be begging ot give it. so fuck em im walking away washing my hands of these people and getting th eknoves surgically removed from my back- iwant no further interactyion with such people and they may have destoyred some of my capital but they sure as fuck ddont get to share in my future capital. all i can say is ive seen it happen so many times fuck with me as litmus? i dont know why it sjust a real bad streak seems to come peoples way, eitehr immediatly or eventually/ im this case i let it go and letthe universe do the work. so onto LESBIANS viva! contracts that i write zAnd create and if not obeyed there are built in penalties.if ethics are breached then i automcatrucally get to take money from your account tp the amount you took from me and its all legal. thats the last time that happens to me, its actually greta i dont have anyone telling me to keep thieves and douchebags on my employ long after my gut says that guys a n incompetent fuck and imn never wrong its a scary town but i aint quittin it. cos i aint losin. .. anbd my fabulius band of four and this record we wrote literally - its so good =- so is what ive done with Linda she chooses her schedule and the time for me is now so we wiltry to replclate her studios sound and i will miss her ability to heklp me take a melody and make it eeven more so-= and her perfect ears - co si think it was a great take and she makes me do ten more-= she can hear vibe and thats a major art- likelast night we had to play the songs to someomne and the best of the crop three major major major league hearts guts soul pussy sass frass hate love teh whole universe - magical songs- and we were tired and dog dog tired and those are the best takes we did and none of ius put it all into it or even tired that hard- and i listend today and they are brilliant takes from scat lyric s and improv guitars and we were listeless as we played sometime sonc ethe song is doenm 110 percent si not what it needs but it needs 55%, to detach from it Linda Perry can hearthat whereas liek acting i think the one wher ei was most "present" is the best take an dthat s just not true - so tahts something i a ma slightly scared of= well when ot comes to art music and acting my gut is perfect and has never let me down(what i want most is to have a great team who protects me from the bullshit and are like human flystrips and act upon any violations to my person child family or home and doesnt make me feel guilty for being me. and deliver what the yWRITE they will or they dont get paid! what a great system! so heres wht your gonna send me okay? its my ONE day off And i need some empowerment knowledge and amusement and inspiration pronis eill get the scamnner workinga nd upload some of the in studio and ijn reherasal stuff when i edit it. youllget a littl etaste but im more excited about 2 of these songs than any sonmgs on the record rock ones anyway.... your favoirte trend colour frgrance purse record song a pictuire of some art you made your favourite band ( but i dont do the links cos i got no time sugars i just wanna see what you got! art jewellry rare cool moituriszers, takuna angel wiorerd japanese clubkids ( iused to hve a few pieces of it) but send a PICCIE cos im sick of pictures of myself from THIS space - if you have one you really liek from courtneylove.com the Rare pictures or the genius nutty guy who mad the wallsize colllage with pics ive bnever even known wer ein existance or teh "copurtney with famosu people thread" theres a funny pone of me and cruise picking each others nits! i wont go to the bandsite but its about ONE thing an image or a song or a thing fragnrance or somnething you want ye sin the material world of taste sound touch decoration furnishing sghit i wish i could upload i went on sephora tpday and they have so few rare makeups-= i did get a buch of urban decay cos the pigmnent in the eyeshadow is great and shiseido cos ot just remonds me of japan and two faced and lotsa benefit stuff and dr brandt but i like my wierd rare things- rare botanicals in d an dl candles like black dhalia flowers or angel trumpet or thornapple or hazel larch and melissa wghite lotus oil or palmaorosa, i have a huge pile of crytslas in this jar teh big piece of obsidian wich is supposed to reveal the evil you do not suspect in your life and it has done its job yes i am a crystal magic person. what magazine even? i read a black book. me an dthat editor got soem shit to straighten out- i was perfectly nice to hiom an dhe hasnt been rude to m,e ...yet but i think someone told hima truly ridiculous outlandish lie and i just wanttostraighten iot outit samusing and i lik ethe city guides and read nylon - yep theres rilo dammed kiley- and a new bag designer jsut what the world needs! of that trendy magazine collective isnt dfazed and confised and V Still the best ones? anyway give me some imsages or desciotions of bands or yoru favourite poem ( by someone else o think well have self poetyr day anothe rtime) pr very favourite cover art of all time or very favourite cover of all time or best dress favourite and why ( mines my Lanvin "punk" dress)or favourite ummm.....candle mines modern alchemys "ex libris"- favourite perfume fraces hello io paptented that one- poet ? edna st vincent m illlay and baudelair an drainer maria rilke OR worst poet to you mine is ee cummings my stepfather rea dit o us and i hated it favourite flower mines lilacs bit also daphne and also tea rose and also gardenia worst break up? mine stole all of frances trust fund, lets not g tthere mines so bad hes gonnaz end up in jail , theres like a whole team courtney going there i wonder will they be incaracarted together- its that bad , best director- today im with quentin cos hes HAPPY and glad to be in his own skin and a rare spirit and all cretiev all the timeand i need to hang with him alot more, with Bennett Miller in the back cos i havent seen him in a long time, best trash tv? hotel babylon on bbc america cos its just trashy like foptballers wioves and its liek a Jordan hotel funnest person youve net lately mine would in fact bne JORDAN we had a ncie meet back atthe BBC at the Graham Norton show and she was doing her first show waaay prettier in person ( its always that way) favourite langiage or accent- mne i like a Northern Brit accent i just melt, etc- BUT you gotta send an IMAGE or a really good description okay? something ican get curious. is there something or someone you love i donthave a clue about? tell me tell me tell me.@ do ytou have the radiohead record? did you pay?do you uselimehouse? fave bag - giles for mulberry spike bag - givechy doble buckle bag and burberrys huge punk spikes bag fashionista? lanvin hous eof worship or what? marc spring genius( yes) or too may refences ? ( i thought i t was a cacophony of fairy fglitter and the best [allette til i saw the vuitton although the vuitton was more about art- he told me the subtext but im gonne keep ot secret- Givenchy couture- YUM- Ditas REAL site? i need to get teh mr pearl numebr she has for my corset from him. secret genius- antonio marras- and back to the top Big Elf its liek sexty sunet strip stoner rock like whatthe band should have been in Almasot Famous if it was about a GREAT band- and the radiohead of metal- im tellongyou everyoen plays evberything for me- ilove my Mark Lanegan- loveme some mark the american Nick cave or Waylon JKennings but noone notices, Best Denim? fucking hands down i win that one Hysteric Glamour jeans sorry NONE BETTER. have you gone to LolitaSnaps.com and been kicked off? i have! Burning MaN? where deadheads went to die or relevant? if you could get antytattoo what would it be>? mine would be the Prelle pattern Le Thiste over my back lasered one. best City on Earth- London London La best vacation on earth- within 40 miles of Cannes shabby chic? pammy anderson does it and for somne reason it toally works she doesbnt give a SHIT what anyone thinks and i love her for that. Mkaes mne wanna go to the Bu really bad, bigger future YYYS or Gossip? waht do you collect> i collect wedding cake toppers and glass slippers.and crystlas the weirder the better. best astrigient- bioloique rechache p-50 vile but so amazing and somme exfoliating pads, best mask - sulferous yeast cow piss baby veal sick sick sick- but zero pores after wards- Bioloquie recherche hust say "le stinky one" my hair NOW or default pic Pfieffer Scarface bob? im begging you tellme something i dont know! i read a whole tashcen chapter on the book of Kells wich iof course ive seen under glass last night- hjistory yes please- japanese history yes please= im bored and the guys went ou rt and my kids a teenager why wopudl sehtalk to ME( she does sleep witheme though) imher lame mom......no actually she finally admitted im cool and shes rebelling by havunbg a dark bob, its gorgeous i just tell her its yucky and she likes it more havent seen gossip girls am i depriving myself? sonic youth? the one moment for you? teenage riot and that album cover for daydream nation - and the next record afte rthat maybe goo had bits- blow me. fave Bowie song? mine is Win of Young Americans or Prettiest star..... okay hope that wasnt too long one more song you think i should cover seriously( obscure ones) and do describe the bands if the description captivates me i oprmnise ne or jason t will go and get a song fo rthe mystical jukebox if its good. xxxx a happily bored Corky ready to make a guerilla second half of record in 6 days grrrrr....... 2007-11-04 false oh_shit_the_inspartion_fairy_sprinkeld_her_glitter_ 0 true bigggg_fucking_elf BIGGGG fucking ELF i was in the kictehn at kung fu making a collage of smashed wedding cakes and i hear this epic rumble and then studio b doors opemn and its the most amazing stoner fucking rock ibve EVER fuckinmg heard mixed and mastered, Damonb is a genius i kno wthat fvromm y own record but this is like Sabbath Bloody Sabbath meets Radiohead karma police meets delicacy meets slayer - its the sexiest sunset strip stoner rock ever evr rout of la and my mystical jukebox partner loves them too, hes puttong rock bnr oll contracttghe somng i heard on the mystical juekebox man you gott ahear this shit, it took two years solid not 667days and 40 days and 12 days liek us 700 some days SOPLIDE to make this Big Elf record and its a fucking revolution in my opants, i know good when i heaR IT and speaking of good we gotta go do b sides asap. okay rawwwwk love court kidnesy and adrenals hurt cgonna try young livings corti support and endoflex moli well id id come acrops steh guy of hous eo fdeihl and girly action asn adked thenm why i should hire them for indioe marketing they havent aNSwered me wich is arrogant wich is the whole litmus of asking ewht asomeone can do for you and how. but maybe theire slow my worst and only tryuly bad review came with them and o dont feel the guy wouldve crossed the line into physicality cellulite ( wich i dont have avctually im blessed) etc etc, and i mentioned that - so far hous eo fdiehl and a gierl from a ny all chick band called drity mary who hasnt writeren me back and girly actiob are teh only people ove heard of one sf designer ereconstructs clothes it looks dead cool. if you got to moli and look up desogners shes about page 5-7 short red hair sf, i liked what i saw imnnaresting. gotta chant 2007-11-02 false bigggg_fucking_elf 0 true hey_web_designers hey web designers! hey im mad crazy working working working suze orman always says pay yourself first - what is YOUR hourly rate? i decided mine is 1500 dollars , because it evens out- forensics, legal and accounting suck upa massive amount of my time- research and development ( listening to m,usci making music ) is free ( althogh should be tax deductible) ( ahnd in fact is witha good person doing taxes alas that is not my case due to circumstances WITHIN my c ontrol and will be cdeal with) i got my monthly budget and ibndeciding to follow in acordance with niormal lAWS of economy - for every dollar i spend i save 2, ive gone to different florist and cut my order ibn half at wholesale- and ma letting go of anyone whom i am not HAPPY to sign thier checks- wbho dont invoice me regularly and who dont show me or my family the respect we deserve by working 100 % and by producing results had a lovely evening with Ricardo Tisci tonight and love him- SOOOOOOO much- i have a new fave Givenchy dress, Couture , worn under a fur at the Couture , its genius, it was sucha relief toget away from the stack of bills and perusing things- eg former assts using my amex having a huge phone billdue to former emplyees using my t mobile, 40.95 cents i tunes that are off itunes and pages and pages of it and a 23 an d 22 percent amex and visa rate! eat me@! my fico is great its bogus bit its great- so how the hell am i getting 23 percent on MY own BANKS visa! thats insanity! bye bye amex fix it or im out! im pissy so i shouldnt be blogging- slacking off a bit in chanting- but protecting myassets and fam ily is teh objective of this post. ME. Kurt and Nirvana alll need a great software designer to help jason t and superman run this cluster of sites- loads of merch so loads of money and loads of design acumen- so far jason has been the best ive ever had at rendering whar i like and want and my scanner is fucked up so i havent sent him my latest images or pantone mixtures, i have dsoe3m amazing fonts and graphics and footage i wanna put up.....all taht channell 4 uk hours and hours of extrA FOOTAge, i have this 20 mninutes of kurt talking in his old man voice being hialrious on a cassette i found just funnycool things xespite my enormous liking for my design company they have not stepped up for me- and teh cluster is totally interereallated my site is cdullas dirt as much as i love those who are members of it and will totally be trhere for them tickets wise and seats wise on tour-= but if im to do thisfree site its gonna cost abourt 150 or 2 bucks to get ona nd it had better be worth it= arta nd loads of songs wich im giving both but i cant move rthe art an d i cant make a website look like my space wich is what everyone expects froma websute now= theres millions in merchandise involved in this so it cannot juist be anyone off the street= write to jason t and tell him/me about yourself if you ior yoru comapny wnats to design an easy peasy amazinfg triplet of sites and can improve upon the radiohead paradigm and also can keep metuclous records and cvan prove it and are willing to be subjected to a background check- a serious one- in teh sense that if youve ever ripped anyone off- dont come around! okay? but loads of great people are on my space- and webiste designers- todays your lucky day unless my company steps it waaaay up i mean like yesterday= its nothing personal but im slashing my budget by 3/4 that means if noones willing to reallyt outthe time and effort in then im going to have to say au revoir to them- if im n ot happy to sign their checks or they overcharge me for the things i really need to make this succesful then i can no longer afford them in my life , ive c ut back massively onclothes and getting a new second hand car, why the hell not, and going without extranbous legal and changing up and freeing my time from accounting forensic accounting and crazy deals i willregret for the rest of my life- i have only myself to decalre "Now i will stand up for my family" and with that determination and commitment even to stand alone and fight the biggest uphill battle pissing lots of people off c os the NOW me has read some substantially significant financial books about what efficent people do for your dollar and what they sure as hell do NOT do , this is the only way to VICTORY, i need to stop texting so much i neecd to put my health and creative life first and make one line texts Chanting to my Gohonzon is the biggest text to the universe i can send and as the ad so brilliantly goes= JUST DO IT. believe i deserve the best not just desire it and get pissed, i have a meeting tomorrow and believe you me im brin ging my a game- actions speak far far louder than words- and i will go by actions from now on and keep a watchful hairy eyeball on my finances- 23 percent? are they insane. lets try for 0. anwyay i know i sound pissy but anything and anyone who takes advantage of us is against us and thus is no longer welcome in our lives. i will not be forced into beliveing that 1 plus 1 does not equal 2 lets go back to the beginning of all this and to the people who were there then who [perhaps made mistakes but did not deliberatly create chaos or make trouble on purpose or break the cycle of zero accountibility= i will no longer tolerate this. i hope you get something out of this. i hop someone has really great software skills and if perceptive has proof of such and has a rec ord of accountibilty this is your lucky day-= go to the radiohead site think of the endless watys of imporving that story- i have most of these ideas but love how jason takes my ideas and imporves upon or adds to them - and superman= this is your lucky day= for alot of reasons i wont get into in a public blog- but go write jason with sites youve designed and sites you like and think run brillaintly and why your right to run these 3 massive sites plus a few more hugely important ones.........along with jason and my cyber team........m,aybe i shoudl only go to "professionals" And i expect professi.. but im always willing to take a risk as long as the person is qaULified and scrupoulsy honest- i do mean scrupoulsy. so show us what ya got! xxc 2007-10-30 false hey_web_designers 0 true other_social_networks other social networks am in a hurry , because we have to go rehearse and write b sides oh i cantf orgetthe cd on my bed, its a great b side idea, very comjplicated and linda wrote an amazing bridge, ( i love a bridge) i had a great night with Marc Jacobs and Jason at Moca the other night and met Chiho ( the artist who is dominsting my page) and Marc texted me and said i made wwd in that whackjob LV dress with the burberry huge belt, i was gonna wear my Mr Pearl corset but thought it was too Dita. anyway i found these 2 spots i like, Tribes.net and Moli. but am lost at how to hnavuigate them or to understand them if anyones on Moli and wants to guid me about hwo to deal with it i found myself having a fun time on there on my day off, but i dont think anyone on there believes im actually myself. anyway i have to go finish chanting, Jason T could you text me i have to ask you something. all the rest of you have a great day. kiss kiss bang bang ( note im giving lotsa japanese love and i saw is it Mikimoto? hos amazing skyscraper steel Buddhas and enameled Buddhas that look like aliens and my Chiho that iabstractly randomly thought id "dciscovered" in a boothw ith Lachapelle while everyone was cdlamboring opver him i wandered off at art frieze fair in London ands though "AHA i foudn MY japanese genius!" has already becoem hotshit so ima little bummed......okay gotta chant and then rehearse with my boys-= Liam is off gettingshot by Testino for Burberry wich he hates but hes not onsalary til after christmas) courtnoi 2007-10-30 false other_social_networks 0 true